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I can see the future. Well, at least, my own future. Towards the end of last year, as I was coming out of the new mommy haze, I began to brightly see what the road could like for me if I could just stay on course.
Those visions we have while daydreaming seem so real. It’s like we’re already there. That’s why wandering off to fantasy world was one of my favorite pastimes as a kid, especially during math class.
Well guess what, if our mind can see it, if our hearts can believe, and if our souls can feel it…the vision is real. Meaning, if you put blinders on and focus on that vision, you will get there.
Ok, awesome. Most of us know that right? Get clear on what we want and then go after it. No brainer. But what about the time in between? What about the times when we’re crossing the desert to get to the promise land and nothing seems to be working out? Then what?
This is when faith comes in. I love that word. It’s full of so much hope, strength, and self-discipline. At times when I would hear that word, it sounded like a virtue that was above me. In the past, I’ve felt too weak to have faith. I mostly lacked the self-discipline required to wake up every day and believe, although everything around me was telling me not to.
But you know what I learned? Faith is not above us. Faith is a choice we’re all invited to make. And whether we know it or not, we each do have faith. Because every day we close our eyes to go to bed and agree to wake up the next morning, we’re choosing to have faith that tomorrow will be another day filled with life. We are strong enough to have faith, because we already have it inside of us — even if it’s really small, it’s there.
The thing about being in the desert is the disappointment we feel when we get there. When we arrive, we almost feel embarrassed. It’s similar to when we open up our heart to someone only to see them break it. We feel stupid for believing in them. How could we have put our guard down, let them in, and then allow them to disappoint us? The same goes for the dreams we try to pursue.
What we forget is that many times the desert is inevitable. We were so excited to hit the road and get on our journey that we didn’t realize we forgot a few things. The desert brings those missing resources to light. The shitty times when nothing seems to be working is simply telling us what we need for the journey and what we don’t need. The drought of that space is not a sign that our vision wasn’t real. It’s simply a conversation the universe is trying to have with us. It wants to tell us what we really need to get to where we want to go. It tells us the skills we need, the resources we need, the beliefs we need, and the strength we need. The desert is bootcamp for dreams. The desert is where we get naked. The desert is growth.
If we can understand that this time — a time that feels like abandonment — is part of the process, faith will follow and carry us through. Embarrassment and failure will only come if you turn around and retreat to the old person you were when you started. Even if the road doesn’t take you exactly where you thought you were going, you will cross that desert and come out anew. And after all, we only start a journey when we’re ready to evolve into the next level of self. That’s the vision.